at the start of my battle my neighbor gave me a painting, "this storm too, shall pass". it appears to have for me. just dealing with the cleanup, physical and mental. re the medical stuff, oh boy. so much to say. a shot of nulasta, $5000 a pop. they have the never to advertise the "quality" of this shit. pls! this process certainly changes things. i've found one constant, regardless as to how bad you've got it, you'll meet folks along the way who've got it worse. attitude is big and most important in all of this. while in the middle of my chemodaze i met a woman who's brain cancer had returned, a stem cell transplant candidate at sloan. her smile, attitude and general well being helped me to understand the "others got it worse" thing. help folks that are going where you've been. its what we're here for. good to see you. climb out from under the rock. cheers Don!