I sincerely appreciate your embrace and good counsel. Before discovering and becoming confident that PBT would cure my cancer with no side effects, I hadn't yet become fearful because my PSA was still not very high at 4.0 (my internist's alarm was that it rocketed from 1.7 to 4.0 over a mere 15 months) and my Gleason score wasn't bad at 3+3=6. I had previously dealt with minor skin cancer surgeries and fully believed that I would once again dodge a bullet because of early detection IF ONLY I could identify the correct modality.
My struggle to remain sane derived from the fact that I was afflicted with this challenge while my best friend of fourteen years was trying to survive a brain tumor and my frail 85 year old Mom was bouncing back and forth from the E.R to an acute care facility month after month, a thousand miles away. Trying to allocate enough devotion to all three crises has been supremely difficult!
On Monday afternoon I put down my white standard poodle who has been at my side for all but perhaps 45 days over fourteen years. And my Mom is recovering well enough to transition from a skilled nursing facility (SNF) to an assisted living residence in about three weeks. So I should have additional time to try to deal with her vacant Florida home in a neighborhood where many homes have failed to sell at deep discounts for a long time, as well as some other drudgery.
In late 2008, my wife and I were catching our breaths after having lost her Dad to a 5 year battle with Alzheimer's and her brother after 7 years with brain cancer. Her brother's experience taught us that there are things much worse than death. Recollection of his ordeal is on my mind as I visit the UofF Proton center each day and see the stream of brain cancer patients come and go. All of this keeps me from feeling at all bad about my condition. Hell, several of we old perverts sometimes huddle in a corner and giggle about the fact that we seem to be sexually normal, as do the guys returning for their annual check ups.... PBT seems to good to be true!
Best regards, Don Parker